Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Time is never on my side

Currently Listening To: Boy Hits Car- The Rebirth
So its almost christmas time again. We all know what that means, right kiddies? Thats right, a rough time. Christmas is always hard around my house now, since my brother died. I mean, it's understandable, but christmas is supposed to be a happy time. And try as we might to make it one, theres always that one point in the day that someone breaks down. Whether it be physically obvious that they have, or just emotionally obvious, you can tell when someone has that look on their face. I think most people look forward to christmas every year. This year Im looking forward to seeing everyone and having dinner at my house, but asside from that, I dont really have that oomph-go-christmas attitude like I used to when I was a kid. I try to make it look like I'm having a good time every year. Even though months before christmas I make sure to tell everyone I hate it. I'm done. Thats all I'm writing.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

It's not easy to hide all this damage inside

Currently Listening To: Staind(acoustic)- Hidden Song

I'm sitting at school, bored again. I don't have class until 2, my History seminar. I usually look forward to it, today isn't any different. Call me a dork, but I like my history class.

Speaking of my history class, two weeks in a row now the bus has been late to the point where I came to class as it was ending. I'm getting really pissed at the bus system. I went out to catch the bus today ten minutes before the hour and it's supposed to come at the hour. So here I was thinking I had plenty of time before it was going to come by my way. A couple of other people show up, and then a few more, and by this time I think it's about ten after the hour... Someone asks what time it is, I hear the person say it's twenty-three after. Great, so the bus has decided to not bother coming by for the hour... More time passes at finally its quater to and lo-and-behold there's the bus! God, I was fuming. That's two weeks in a row that the bus was so late that I was really super late for class. Yesterday wasn't so bad because I was only fifteen minutes late for lecture. But that's still bad. If it had been a seminar I would have been pissed. I think I may really need a car, like ASAP. Someone want to buy me one for christmas? C'mon, you know you do.

It's snowing outside right now, pretty hard too. It's been snowing since like 10ish. It's recently gotten pretty hard though. Earlier when I was walking in it it wasn't too windy out and the snow was falling lightly. When I looked straight up I could see each individual snowflake. It was gorgeous. I felt all angelic walking into the library with my hair covered in white snowflakes. Call me a dork, but I did.

This weekend Kelly, Ben, Johnny and I are all going up to Ben's cottage near Apsley. I think I spelled that right, but I couldn't be sure. Anyways, it's apparently near Jake Lake, and we'll be doing a little bit of drinking, socializing with his grandparents, playing cards, hiking, and sitting by the campfire. It's going to be a really nice relaxing weekend before exams start. I'm pretty sure next week is the last week of classes before Christmas break, for me. And I even have exams on the weekend. Now that's an experience I haven't had before, school on the weekend. Hurray for Univeristy. *rolls eyes* Wish me luck too eh?

So I went to TO this past weekend and browsed through some pretty awesome stores on Queen street. I went into Borderline, Siren, Steve's Music, and some random cool stoers that aren't as popular. Drew pointed out a store called Uglydoll that has the living deal dolls and stuff like that in it, but we were going to have to leave our bags at the door. We decided it wasn't going to be worth it and moved on.

I also made supper for Cameron and Drew on Sunday night. Jennie and Paul had gone to Oshawa because Jennie was called to work at GM Monday morning, so she spent the night at her Dads house and Paul went with her. So it was just Cameron, Drew and I. Carly was there too but she spent most of the time in her room studying and writing a paper for her classes. Actually Cameron spent a lot of time in his room reading too. I was worried about him on Saturday because he hadn't come downstairs at all, and then Sunday morning I was asking Jennie whether he had come down to eat yet. That was a big negative, I was going to ask her if he would care if I went up to make sure he was at least still alive, but I didn't. She assured me he was likely fine.

Saturday night Jennie, Paul, Drew and I went to a little restaurant and got something to eat for supper. It was a really cute place. Pretty busy inside, but cute. Earlier that day Kelly, Drew and I had gone to Subway before Drew and I saw Kelly to the subway so she could meet up with Mole and head to Orangeville, so I wasn't very hungry. Drew and I ended up ordering a plate of appetizers to share, but I still found that I wasn't as hungry as I wanted to be, and the food was really good.

Friday night Kelly and I went to Sarah's wine and cheese party. It was pretty good. A small gathering of people, lots of food and wine, for sure. Kelly and I had to leave early though so we could pack and get some sleep before we had to leave for the bus in the morning. Which ended up being okay because after awhile Kelly started to get bored and I could tell. We asked Steve to drive us home and Cynthia came for the ride. Man she's quite the character. She had some stories to tell thats for sure. And she says the silliest things when she's drunk. She kind of reminded me of myself when I'm drunk. All in good fun, all in good fun. ;)

My Dying Bride- For My Fallen Angel

As I draw up my breath,
And silver fills my eyes.
I kiss her still,
For she will never rise.
On my weak body,
Lays her dying hand.
Through those meadows of Heaven,
Where we ran.
Like a thief in the night,
The wind blows so light.
It wars with my tears,
That won't dry for many years.
"Loves golden arrow
At her should have fled,
And not Deaths ebon dart
To strike her dead."